Home Sweet Home

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Current weight: 161.5

Since last check-in : 3 lbs.

Total weight lost:  47 lbs.

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And it’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas …

I’ve been home for five days and am adequately acclimatized to reflect on the inevitable adjustments. Today is Tuesday and I will not be heading off to a weekly Weight Watchers Meeting. I’m a wee bit sad on that score. I enjoyed the accountability of the weigh-in, the weekly discussion topics and the opportunity to be part of a group of people who were all dedicated to the same goal – weight loss.

Coping method: I will stay in touch with group members through Facebook and will keep on the program using the online version. I will use my FitBit Aria II scale to weigh-in. It’s connected to my W.W. app, so all will be recorded as it was when I attended the meetings. Not the same but that’s the best I can do for now.

I won’t be doing my run/fast-walk hour at the local indoor track. I loved that daily workout with music playing through my ear buds as I moved quickly around the track in what, over time, became an easy jog.

Coping method: I’ve figured out how much I have to pick up the pace on my wilderness walking circuit to get a similar workout. Tracking my heart rate zones while on the stationary bike has been eye-opening. When I turned the tension dial up a notch and picked up my speed, I could get over half my forty-five minute workout in cardio and half in peak! So, weather dependent – it’s pouring rain here today – I do an hour long fast-walk or a ride on the stationary bike. Every day – one or the other!

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For meditation, I’ve been using the Headspace App. Great options and cool graphics. One of my choices has been a 3-level program (each level consisting of 10 meditations to be done over that many days) on mindful eating. These meditations are super helpful. No problem with finding quiet time at home to meditate. I do have some issues with this app, though. Love the content but it is so glitchy, paying for it seems like madness. I have to uninstall and reinstall every two days to get the silly thing to work. Oh well, I do love what is on offer, so will go the extra mile and hope that at some point the powers that be get the bugs out of the app.

The journey continues and I am thrilled to be losing weight again. I am determined – 2020 is the year I reach and maintain my ideal weight of 140 lbs.

Me in workout modeThat’s me, last week, in my workout gear all ready to head to the indoor track. Good times.

The trick in life is to bloom wherever you end up planted. I had a phenomenal time trying out new things while away from home. But home is a great place, too.

Here’s to blooming Smile

Slowly But Surely–Learning as I Go

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Current weight: 164.5

Since last check-in : 1.5 lbs.

Total weight lost:  44.5 lbs.

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What a gorgeous sunset here in my current abode!

So, progress is slow and I’m feeling pleased with any movement of the scale in a downward direction. In my 2nd week at W.W., I lost 1.5 and then this last week, stayed the same. All good.

Weight Watchers is about balance and I’m really working hard to discover what that means for me. I’ve upped my exercise regime with an intermittent run/walk routine.

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The above is a screen capture on my FitBit app for a session that involved a run/fast walk cycle. Below, a day when I chose to only fast walk. Both are great for cardio. And I love the technology that makes all this tracking possible.

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I’m also practicing meditation on a regular basis. I need to seriously reflect on why I hit the wall of backsliding so hard and meditation helps with that goal. Much is about habit. January through June of this year, I had trained myself to eat healthy food in small portions. Having created a habit, it was easy to eat in that way. When I slowly but surely let the habit start slipping away, I really struggled.

Sticking with hard-won habits, though vitally important, is not the whole story. There is a part of me that has attributed all that is not perfect about my life to being overweight. My rational self argues with that idea (for good reason) but the belief lingers. So, when some things about my life weren’t radically better, even after losing 40 lbs, I did feel disillusioned. Believe me, I’m working on self-defeating believes and magical thinking. Meditation helps!

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Taking Positive Action on Backsliding

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Current weight: 166

Since last check-in : no change

Total weight lost:  42.5 lbs.

Where, oh where, have I been? Up and down – literally. The last I came to this blog was the end of June – my birthday and what a great day that was! I had lost 42.5 lbs. and was on top of the world. My goal was to enjoy holidays and summer visitors. Come September, I would get to work on the second half of my weight loss journey.

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I loved this past summer – swimming, kayaking, fun times with granddaughters, hiking and squeezing every great moment out of time with visitors. All good. Checking back on my Fitbit app – I averaged 164 to 166 lbs. through June, July and August. Swell – just as planned, maintaining my 40 lb. loss.

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Then came September and I felt geared up to get back on the weight loss horse. I struggled to re-establish my scheduled one fast day per week and my previous healthy eating plan. I had thought my only obligation would be food preservation (canning, freezing etc.) with the garden producing big time this year. But we continued to have visitors through the whole month. I was overly busy and stressed. My weight continued to vary 164 to 166 lbs. and I couldn’t get back to losing.

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All of a sudden, it was October. We scrambled to get all projects around the place done so we could take a three-week trip. Again, wonderful times! We did a 12K walk in the snow on an old rail bed across some amazing trestle bridges, another great day of hiking a lake loop for 10K. Our trip was organized around real hiking and that was awesome. But holidaying, though so necessary and super fun, was not conducive to weight loss. I started to average 169.

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Got home with the expectation of getting straight back to weight loss. No problem that I was two months past the date planned for such work. Better late than never. But a week went by, my weight was up to 172 and I simply couldn’t stop eating. I was in dangerous waters and coming close to going over the falls!

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Time for serious action! I have relocated myself to a bigger center from my isolated home for the next 6 weeks. I’ve joined a local Weight Watchers group and I am on an incredible exercise regime. I have people around me who are keeping me accountable and though I hadn’t anticipated needing such a resource … WOW … am I ever glad I made the decision to take action to find something that would work. I simply couldn’t face letting all my work in the first half of this year slip away in the last half. I’ve been on that roller coaster cycle before and, believe me, it is no fun.

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So, I am now immersed in the world of Weight Watchers … tracking points and weigh-ins. Truth be told, I’m loving it! The group is great, the app is super engaging and I’ve lost 6.4 lbs. Life is good. Back to where I wanted to be as I move into the second half of my weight loss journey. Wow, me. You go, girl!

Moral of the story? Just act. We don’t always know when we decide what we’ll do if the action is totally right, but we can adjust as we go. The important thing is to act.

Smiling My Way Through a Gain

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Current weight: 166

Up since last check-in : 1.5 lbs.

Total weight lost:  42.5 lbs.

Me, the kids and my gift

Posting a weight gain but feeling darn good. How does that compute? Yesterday was my birthday. Wow – what a difference a year can make Smile 

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My weight is up due to good times – my trip to Ottawa, rodeo adventures and birthday fun – dinner out and cake later. It’s okay. My holiday is drawing to an end and soon I will be back home and literally surrounded by fresh produce. Can’t wait.

This first trip since losing over 40 lbs has been special. What a treat to try on clothes in any store I cared to go in. Not necessarily buying, but most certainly enjoying the experience. I’ve been able to get up and cross the floor in front of a room full of people without a second thought – no worrying that everyone is staring. I am really reaping the rewards of months of hard work and am so enjoying the moments.

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Kid me filter – hilarious Smile  I am feeling younger but that is just ridiculous.

As Easy as Riding a Bike

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Current weight: 164.5

Lost this week: 1.5

Total weight lost:  44 lbs.

(Weighing in as a guest on my daughter’s Aria Scale Smile )

 

 

Loads of exercise and trying the 16/8 intermittent fasting seems to be paying off. I didn’t expect to lose weight on this trip. These last two weigh-ins have been pleasant surprises.

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Here’s me realizing the dream of bike riding with my daughter and granddaughters – 8K on our first trip out Smile Can’t wait to get on that bike again.

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Life is good. Living the dream.

Getting Out and About

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Current weight: 166

Lost this week: 1 lbs.

Total weight lost:  42.5 lbs.

(Weighing in as a guest on my daughter’s Aria Scale Smile )

Awe … the good life … enjoying the fruits of one’s labour and all of that. Fun times with family and friends is the order of my days.

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I can’t remember (at least, not for a long, long time) feeling so free and happy to be out and about. Seeing people was a joy instead of a self-conscious nightmare.

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There you have it – no skinny mini but so happy in my skin. Can’t stop smiling. Stay tuned for more fun travel pics.

Final History Chapter–Back to the Future

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What a journey. Today’s post marks the end of my mid-week strolls down memory lane. Have you enjoyed the story so far? As Tyrion says, “There is nothing in the world more powerful than a story.” So, let’s catch up to the now.

In 2017, my daughter gave me her old FitBit. I fell in love with the little gadget. I started tracking and though I wasn’t seeing a big change in my weight, I was aware of my activity level like I’d never been before. This was the beginning of the final stage of preparation for serious weight loss. Though I didn’t know it at the time, I was establishing baseline data and charting future action.

I started 2018 with a commitment to daily meditations and journal reflections using Daily Om online courses. I focused on topics such as clearing what is hold you back, Buddhist communication and letting go of weight. I stuck with this routine for months. I upped my activity level, walking a minimum of 5K every day. My weight fluctuated from a low of 208 lbs. to a high of 212 lbs. Despite the lack of weight loss, I had a wonderful year. I got totally off my blood pressure meds. I continued to use the FitBit and the FitBit app for my phone. I was getting prepared for a more active stage of change.

For Christmas, I requested the Aria2 FitBit scale. Someone asked my husband, “Did your wife ask for this scale specifically because if not, women don’t necessarily appreciate getting a scale as a gift. Sort of sends a message, you know?” Too true. I can imagine other years when I would have been outraged to receive such a ‘gift’.

On Jan. 3, 2019, I began my weight lose journey. And there you have it – you’ve come with me on quite a trip over the last weeks. From the little girl hiding a box of tapioca pudding under my bed to the almost 62 year-old me starting yet another weight loss attempt.

If the retelling of my history of weight loss and gain has shown me anything, it is this – I need accountability to succeed. This blog, the FitBit, the FitBit app, the Aria2 scale, friends and family who know how much sticking with my plan means to me – all these things call me to be true to my dreams.

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Accountability = Awareness Smile

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Change takes time and many of the stages of change are about getting ready. I see my entire weight loss history as the necessary time it took to be ready for what is happening to me now.

So, one journey comes to an end and another begins. Next week, I am off on holidays to visit family and friends. And from now on, you will only hear from me once a week when I do my weight check-in post.

Many, many thanks to anyone out there in the blogosphere we took the time to read my posts. Everyday is precious, every moment matters. Why me, why now? Why not?

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